The Life I Live

The day’s been hectic and yet manageable. I happened to finish an entire report on something totally worthless if it’s taken out of the company’s context. I also happened to finish half of the other task I planned for today. Well, I think I am sounding like a manager these days and the sentences before this one seem to be endorsing that thought!

The headache is no more today but you never know when it will turn up. Headaches are unpredictable. No denying that. But I wish they could be foretold. I would not plan for that whole day then.

Thought So Free…

I am bored. I am half willing to drop my pants and have sex. But I will not, all because I am in office. At times, I get this urge to just pick the first attractive stud I lay my eyes on and make out with him. But because I live in a society that advocates propriety of behaviour, I do not let myself get carried away by that thought.

What will it be like if I just let go of my inhibitions for one day and make out with several men? I’ll be exhausted for sure. I already feel exhausted as I think and write about it. Yes, the nakedness of all those men is tempting and I think I should be aroused. But I am not. My member is still asleep and doesn’t seem to show any signs of waking up right now.

So no, so much of sex – though fascinating – is not something that will captivate my senses forever.

Sigh! I am so so bored man! I could eat up the desktop and not bother I am ill-treating company property. Okay wait a second – why is it that I am this loose in my thoughts and seem to have no way of controlling them into anything fruitful?

Perhaps, it’s because I myself am free and bereft of any attachment. I am not married, nor am I dating anyone. So it’s easy to just wander around without bothering about the consequences.

Now this is a consequence I have to deal with ASAP. Or else, I will just sigh and shred into a thousand silvery strands of a silk sheet that once glittered and shined in the Sun.

The Order of Disorder

I don’t get good vibes from my boss. But then what’s new. If I report to anyone, I always have a ‘communication problem’ with that anyone.

I guess it’s part of corporate life – to generate such problems so that appraisals give us some one-on-one time to talk to our bosses. As it is, they have no time for you and they never ever have time to comprehend what’s going on either!

Beginning Today…

A brand new day comes up and brings work with it as well. So that will keep me occupied. I called up Eve to find out about my provident fund (PF) money. I left that organization – in which she still works and suffers – way back in July 2005. But I haven’t collected my PF from them. I do hope to wrap up that chapter soon.

My neck hurts. God alone knows why. Perhaps, I am straining it too much. I need to bother about it, really. The last time I let my back pain, I had to sit at home for a day to nurse it back to health. So, yes, hurt the neck less is what my motto is today!

I Mind The Routine

I have a job. And it pays me well. I have work to do. And it keeps me occupied well enough to justify the pay. But, every Monday, I just have to wake up and whine about the routine that lies waiting for me all week.

It’s a bland routine, really. I go to work, work, then travel back home, bathe, dine, and then sleep. The next morning, the cycle begins yet again.

Ever so often, I feel I must run away from this routine. I feel I must run away to a snow-clad valley and settle in a cottage by the river there.

It’s escapism alright. I know it is. Who – with a job that pays – will want to plonk it all and run away?

Well, all said and done, I think I must run away someday. At least, then I will not say I did not ever run away!